I’m taking inventory of what is adding to my life and what things are taking away from it. Some decisions are easy while others….let’s just agree that facebook can be addictive.
The number one thing I complain about is time. Not having enough of it to get things done, running out of it, time moving too slowly (yes, I agree those contadict each other). The current plan:
1. Facebook is a huge time suck. I’m limiting myself to 10 minutes in the morning while I drink my coffee and then it goes bye bye until the next day.
2. TV. There are a few shows I watch, but I have an elliptical machine upstairs getting dusty. The new rule: I have to work out for an entire netflix show (which I can watch on the ipad, propped on the elliptical) before I am allowed to sit my ass on the couch to watch mindlessly. That ensures at least 30 minutes of moving.
This has been a major life stressor for me, so much that we are looking at moving closer to my new office. Living 45 minutes away from work, family, hairdresser, dentist, doctor, etc….it adds up to a lot of driving. Which adds up to a lot of gas money, lost time, and anxiety.
In addition to moving, my practice is my own business. Yes, a huge dream come true. In that spirit, I’m going to play with hours of operation – opening after rush hour in the morning and having some later evening appointments or Saturday hours.
Leaving a hospital job was a leap of faith in my abilites. I gave up a steady paycheck and good benefits but decided I could not thrive in that environment or provide the patient experience I envision is necessary. That job was so full of stress it took me weeks to get back into a mentally healthy place. Flash forward and I’m seeing patients, relying on the kindness of friends in the field and other professionals that are allowing me use of their space while my office is being built. Good people who share the same vision starting popping up in my life once I lifted myself from the situation I was in.
The bad part (to me) of business ownership is figuring out the freaking taxes and money stuff. I just want to see patients. Sigh, but I need money to keep the doors open and don’t want to screw up anything with taxes. I don’t know how much I don’t really know so I am meeting with an accountant to turn that part of the puzzle over to someone who knows what the heck they are doing. It’s worth it – I sat down and figured out how much time I spent doing that paperwork, researching to see if it was correct, time spent avoiding the paperwork and stressing, and came to the conclusion that the hourly fee was a worthy expense.
This is a big one for me. I struggle daily and have multiple shelves of healthy cook books, food philosophy, etc. I spent about $3000 on integrative health coaching classes hoping to find the answer. Spoiler alert: everyone is different. Now you don’t need to take those classes. I’ve tried weight watchers, diet pills, paleo, vegan, gluten free, psychotherapy, hypnosis – this list is getting embarrassing. So for right now, I’m telling my body that it is ok just the way it is. I’m looking for ways to incorporate the best nutrition and figure out what I’m lacking, why I’m craving, and how to build a better relationship with my outer half. I may or may not blog about it. It depends on what feels right, but I will continue to share recipes.
I want to like exercise but it cuts into my ass on the couch time. However, I found a yoga class that is a bit different and I can do the movements. There is a focus on breath and meditation, getting in touch with the body. This is a good start for me right now. Plus the elliptical for my TV time :)
I did ask for square dancing lessons for Hanukkah….the husband is not amused but said he would look into it. If not, I may take myself to another type of dance lesson. I want activity to be fun.
This is probably why I spend/spent so much time on facebook. Being part of a community and feeling like an “in” kid. I’m moving towards more genuine face to face friendships – it involves pushing out of my shell, but that will bring much better things to my life.
That’s the inventory for now.